Transformation takes time. And decision.

๐ˆ ๐ฐ๐š๐ฌ ๐š ๐ฌ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฅ๐ž ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฆ, ๐š ๐Ÿ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ญ๐ข๐ฆ๐ž ๐๐ก๐ƒ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐ฎ๐๐ž๐ง๐ญ, ๐š ๐ฉ๐š๐ซ๐ญ ๐ญ๐ข๐ฆ๐ž ๐ฌ๐œ๐ข๐ž๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ, ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐ง๐จ ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ฉ๐ฉ๐จ๐ซ๐ญ, ๐ข๐ง ๐š ๐Ÿ๐จ๐ซ๐ž๐ข๐ ๐ง ๐œ๐จ๐ฎ๐ง๐ญ๐ซ๐ฒ.

I’ve been thereI hear from so many woman telling me:

– I am just so busy- I can’t exercise

– I like my “insert food/drink” too much

– I need to tend to my children / cat / household / run a business..

Trust me, I have been there. I was always the busiest person around – the overachiever in me crying for approval and love never allowed me to have free time to “read a book”. As a child I was never free to make my own decisions, my time wasn’t my own. So when I turned 18, moved away and started living my own own life, I started learning – for the first time ever – what I actually want to do with my life and who I actually want to become. I partied a lot, drank a lot of alcohol, ate a lot of junk and could not see a future where I would be calm, happy and content without all these things in my life.

๐Ž๐ง๐œ๐ž ๐ˆ ๐›๐ž๐œ๐š๐ฆ๐ž ๐š ๐ฆ๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ซ, ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฌ ๐œ๐ก๐š๐ง๐ ๐ž๐ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง ๐ฆ๐ž. I was suddenly responsible for a living being that wasn’t just a fish! I became a role model! ๐Ÿ˜ณ

How will I, a messed up girl with so many issues, who can’t take care of herself, be able to take care of a baby and be responsible for her to grow into a functioning adult?? GEEEEEEZ, talking about pressure!I was a single mum, a full time PhD student, a part time scientist, with no support, in a foreign country.

๐ˆ ๐๐ข๐๐ง’๐ญ ๐ก๐š๐ฏ๐ž ๐ญ๐ข๐ฆ๐ž. ๐ˆ ๐๐ข๐๐ง’๐ญ ๐ก๐š๐ฏ๐ž ๐œ๐ก๐ข๐ฅ๐๐œ๐š๐ซ๐ž. ๐ˆ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฎ๐ ๐ ๐ฅ๐ž๐ ๐ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ฎ๐ฉ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐ž๐ž๐ค๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ง๐ž ๐ฌ๐ž๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ข๐จ๐ง ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐›๐ž๐ฌ๐ญ๐ข๐ž

How did I get over it?I DECIDED this was not a life I wanted to live. Sounds cheesy eh? Yep, totes! But with every subsequent decision I made, I took a step closer to my goal. I am accountable to myself and my daughter.

๐€๐ง๐ ๐ˆ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ, ๐ฐ๐ก๐ž๐ง ๐ˆ ๐Ÿ๐ž๐ž๐ฅ ๐š๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐๐„๐’๐“ – ๐ˆ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐›๐ž ๐š๐›๐ฅ๐ž ๐ญ๐จ ๐ญ๐š๐ค๐ž ๐œ๐š๐ซ๐ž ๐จ๐Ÿ ๐ก๐ž๐ซ, ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ซ ๐Ÿ๐ŸŽ๐ŸŽ๐ŸŽ ๐ซ๐ž๐ฌ๐ฉ๐จ๐ง๐ฌ๐ข๐›๐ข๐ฅ๐ข๐ญ๐ข๐ž๐ฌ, ๐š๐ฌ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐๐„๐’๐“

When will it be enough for you? When will you decide?

๐Œ๐ฒ ๐Ÿ—๐ŸŽ ๐๐š๐ฒ ๐.๐€.๐ƒ. ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐€๐œ๐š๐๐ž๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐š ๐ ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐ญ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐š๐ซ๐ญ – ๐ฆ๐š๐ค๐ž ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ž ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฉ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ฌ๐ž๐ฅ๐Ÿ ๐Ÿ๐ข๐ซ๐ฌ๐ญ

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